Uhm, wow?
I found out last week that the ex is in a serious relationship … and it hurt. I’m still hurting from it. He didn’t want to be with me through medical school because I’m “not worth taking care of.” Yeah; not very nice … I know. I’m glad that we’re not together, and I’m better off and happier not being married to him, but it hurts to know that he’s found someone “worth” taking care of. It hurts a lot more than I thought it was going to and I don’t like it. I don’t know why it hit me so hard today, but I definitely feel like retreating for a long while to nurse some very old wounds.
I really thought I was stronger than this. I really thought I was getting better.
Two steps forward, three steps back … what a cycle.
mental and emotional health, depression, divorce, dating after divorce, emotional hurt, medical school, cycling
May 17th, 2007 at 2:38 pm
[...] I came home, put on my running clothes (!!!!!) and went out for a short-ish run. I only made it about 4 miles before my new shoes started rubbing my foot funny and I knew I’d develop a blister, so I came back home. MissPea was (strangely) still sleeping and so I did some stretching and then surfed the internet a bit. I learned, on accident, who the X is dating and things went downhill quickly from there. I ended up getting in bed, bawling for a while and then falling asleep. I was supposed to go see Mama and BabyDee this early afternoon, but I was so upset even when I woke up (again) that I called her, whined to her about my situation (another reason I love my best friend … she has a week-old baby and she’ll still listen to me whine about my emotional problems!) and then we rescheduled for tomorrow. [...]
May 17th, 2007 at 4:46 pm
You know, maybe you’re looking at this from the wrong angle. When Mr. Whatever said you weren’t worth taking care of, maybe what he really meant was, “I’m too lazy and retarded to try.”
May 17th, 2007 at 9:21 pm
I found this post following over from your TT. I can’t even believe someone could say something like “you’re not worth it”. Well, yes I can believe that someone would say that, but it’s terrible.
I agree with Mad. You are definitely looking at it from the wrong angle. I just asked my 13 year old daughter what she would think if someone said that to her. She said good-bye and she made an “L” on her forehead. The loser sign! I have to agree. Be glad you found out before you married him, not sad that you lost him at all.
Jessica The Rock Chick
May 18th, 2007 at 3:29 am
I can understand it hurting but I agree he isn’t worth your energy. He was an idiot and selfish!!!
May 23rd, 2007 at 5:41 pm
I’m so sorry, sweetie. I can only imagine how painful that must be. I know I’d be livid and jealous and resentful if I was in your shoes. I hope you are able to move through the pain and shock of the news to a place where you don’t hurt as much. Love ya.