RIP HappyBunny
A friend that I worked with at the hospital billing office died yesterday. Other close friends from work were nice enough to wait until today to tell me (so as not to “ruin” my birthday). MamaCeeta called me this morning and I had to shut down. I was staying with Mr.E. and I just closed off in order to not “deal” with things right there with him. I came home and dealt with things by climbing back in bed, crying, and mourning the loss of a friend.
HappyBunny and I had a strange relationship, we were always nice to one another, but it was that “goodmorning b*tch” nice. Bunny was twice my age and twice as feisty; and I loved her. We harassed one another daily and I loved it. She was my last Valentine’s Day secret gift receiver and I’m glad now that I spoiled her rotten with it.
It’s all incredibly sad to me, and I don’t really know how to deal with this; I’ve never had a close friend die. I haven’t really felt anything since crying this morning … and I don’t know when I will. I’m sorry about this random post, it’s just what has my mental and emotional health all messed up.
mental and emotional health, death, death of a friend, depression, change

May 30th, 2007 at 4:09 pm
Sorry for your loss, Sarah. But you should share, not shutdown. What are friends for, if not to share the good and the bad.