Keeping Your Emotions in Tack
I’m not sure where I’m going with this. I’m just going to wander into it. We bought a daycare in May of 2007. I had never been able to work a full 40 hour work week because of my health. The depression, the anxiety, the laziness. No, it wasn’t really laziness, it really was depression.
When we bought the daycare though, I became the person that had to do it all and do it all right. I am a control freak, I have OCD and I get depressed and anxious when things are not going according to my plan.
And, with that, I have to tell you that very little that has happened since May of 2007 has happened in the manner in which I planned. We sold the daycare a few weeks ago but had already closed it in July.
My health was going down hill and fast. I found I had a thyroid disorder and diabetes. I wasn’t doing anything to keep my diabetes in check so that, along with the state of affairs at the daycare, had put me in a serious funk. I thought it was ONLY a serious funk.
As it turned out, I had caught mono somehow and before it was all said and done, I was in the hospital. I’m still not over the mono. I had a relapse as late as last week. My doctor says that with my other health issues and my tendency to become depressed, I would probably see symptoms of mono into the winter.
My doctor really seems to be watching me close and trying to do his best to see that I don’t fall over the edge. He is a great doctor and I just wish everyone could have a doc like him.
And, so with that, we are headed for a vacation. There wasn’t one person that knew us that had any doubts that we needed and deserved a vacation. Not one person!
We’ve been gone since 9 AM this morning. I woke up at 3 AM and couldn’t sleep. I just stayed up. For me, at 3:20 PM, 12 hours later, I’m nearing the end of my schedule for the day. Yet, we’ve got at least half of the trip left ahead of us.
We left this morning in time to stop by the great super store and pick up a few odds and ends as well as get Wayne a haircut. By the time we got gas, made it to our favorite restaurant, ate lunch and got back on the road, it was almost 2 PM.
With that said, I haven’t relaxed yet. We are going to be on vacation at the beach until next Friday and I’m hoping that by the time we lay our sleepy heads down tonight I start to get that feeling that you are suppose to get with vacations. I don’t know if I even know what that feeling is but I sure hope I get it…and soon!
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