I tried …
This weekend I had the opportunity to learn something very important about myself. Sometimes I still feel like I’m the uncool kid at a high school get-together. On Friday night I went out with some friends who alienated me and made me feel like the odd one out. I ended up leaving the table they were at and sat at the bar talking with the bartender (who was actually a friend of mine) until almost 1am. It was petty, ridiculous, and now it’s water under the bridge, but my feelings were still hurt. I came home, climbed into bed and started a movie to take my mind off of things. It worked, but I’m still peeved at how I was treated. I felt like I was in 8th grade all over again and being shunned by the popular kids. As a 25-year-old woman who struggled with her self-esteem all though junior high & high school, feeling this again really hurt. After the week that I had, I’m sure that this didn’t help, so I stayed away from everyone yesterday. Mostly I stayed in bed watching movies and really spent some time thinking about how I handled the situation. I didn’t handle it well and need to rethink how I feel about “popularity.”
One of my friends sent me a kind note to apologize “ditching” me on Friday night and let me know that she wants to see me on Sunday night, which made me feel better - I think she understood how things made me feel. I’m sure that part of it was my fault because of my reaction to their strangeness, but I had to react to something that they were projecting and had to protect myself. Overall, it must turn into water under the bridge so that relationships aren’t ruined. Back to putting band-aids on wounds to help them heal.
mental and emotional health, personal issues, friends, being ditched, weekend, self-esteem, being hurt, movies

April 9th, 2007 at 2:19 pm
I am stuck and bandaids cause they are stuck on me.
I’m sorry there were hurt feelings on Friday. Glad things turned out to be water under the bridge.