Mental & Emotional Health

I haven’t mentioned that I’ve always had the propensity to get sick easily.  Then for years my diagnosis would change from one doctor to another, lupus, fibromyalgia, to simply chronic pain.  I’ve taken steroids, I’ve taken non-steroidal anti-inflammatory drugs, I’ve taken antidepressants, antiepileptic drugs along with all kinds of therapy.

The pain would drift back and forth from debilitating to simply a nuisance.  I’ve had more jobs than most people have in a lifetime.  Somewhere near 40 positions that I have held over the course of my adult life and most were lost due to my health. 

My pregnancies were horrible.  I wouldn’t take anything for my children but this body was just not a good incubator for them.  I spent many weeks on bedrest, I lost massive amounts of weight and was throwing up more and more as the days waned by.  I was on bedrest in my first pregnancy for 12 weeks.  The second pregnancy the best rest was only 10 weeks the second pregnancy but I only managed to carry the child til 10 weeks.  So, there were issues all the way around.

The discovery of 3 herniated discs in the lumbar region of my back.  I had already suffered many years from endometriosis and I knew that having a hysterectomy as soon as possible was in my future.  Indeed, that was what happened.  My youngest son was six weeks old when  I had the hysterectomy but that didn’t solve the the lumbar issues.  When that little cherub turned four months old, I had major back surgery.  My mom quit work to stay with me.  The recovery was a year.  At 6 months I fell down a flight of stairs. 

And, now, now I am suffering from recurring bouts of mono.  I had a full fledge case in or around June and July of this year.  This is my second relapse and hopefully if I can find a way to get to feeling better and take care of myself a little better then I can get to a better place emotionally. 

My mental and emotional health have suffered a great deal.  Mentally, the mono is known for causing mental fatigue.  Emotionally, just the everyday activities of trying to run a business.  We finally closed it.  I still suffer.  I continue to suffer.   I don’t know how long it may last, but I do know that anyone who has doubts about chronic pain and the how it will affect the rest of my life. 

I’d love to hear from some of you who are in the same boat as myself.  I really would like to hear from you.