Mental & Emotional Health

Photo courtesy of Trizza Grantham Photography

As you’re reading this, my little white car and I are headed down to Lithia Park in Ashland, Oregon to watch a dear friend marry her dearest friend. I’ve always been an emotional woman when it comes to relationship, but I’ve watched that emotionality skyrocket since my divorce. The first wedding I went to as a single woman, I cried more than the mother of the bride did. (It didn’t help that my ex-husband was the best man, though!) It wasn’t a wedding I could skip (my high school/college best friend’s older brother married my sophomore-year college roommate) and I knew, going into it, that I was going to cry.

The second wedding I went to as a single woman I cried through the ceremony because my “little” Bean was getting married. I was playing photographer for most of the day, however, since there was no photography during the ceremony, I had no job, I was free to cry.

A & J’s wedding will be the third wedding as a single woman (three weddings a year, go me!) and once again, I am lucky enough to have a “job” during it. Trizza Grantham Photography is doing the photography, but I have been given permission to shoot around her. This is actually first fall wedding and I’m excited to see what I can come up with photography-wise. I’ve realized that as long as I have a “job” during a wedding, I won’t bawl. I think this is a good thing. Knowing me, I’ll probably still cry at A & J’s ceremony; I’m just a romantic at heart.

I’ve been thinking a lot about relationships lately and how I miss having one. I constantly remind myself that I have lots of relationships, with my family members, with my friends, and with schoolmates, even. It’s the romantic relationship that I’m truly missing though. However, I don’t want to date. I don’t have time to date. I don’t feel like I have time for the getting-to-know-you process, which is sad. I don’t have any men in my life that I already know well that I’d like to create a romantic relationship with anyway. So I’m stuck in this weird place … no time (or desire) for the dating game, but missing a romantic relationship. What does a woman do!?

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