Emotional Rollercoaster
It seems that these days I am a disaster in the making. I can an do make more mistakes in judgment than ever before in my life. I have been swooning to attend Blogher for 3 years. No kidding last year I even wrote a post about all those who went and my opinion was very wrong even then. This year I was going to Blogher one way or another. I found people (sponsors) to help me pay the way, however, so did hundreds of other people.
On Wednesday night I had a great time in the lobby, chilling with a few other people. Literally I mean a few other people. And then…it began…..
On Thursday I attended an event with 49 other women, and then Thursday night it was one massive party after another. One breakfast, one lunch, one session, one huge expo hall, all of them cram packed with people. And I like people, right?
Of course I do. But apparently I like my people in groups of 5 to 10 as opposed to 500 or 1000. I had a lot more fun hanging with the few than hanging with the many. Moreover, it was quite obvious to everyone that this was the case as people I knew would pass by me and say, “wow you look tired” and yes, indeed, I was tired but I was also over-whelmed. I was feeling the effects of an emotional rollercoaster. The desire to belong in every room, at every party with every group and the counter attack of wanting to hang out in a room or in the lobby with just a few people and enjoy it.
I did spend some time in the lobby just hanging out alone. GASP! Me? Hang out alone? I hate to be alone. Actually I wasn’t alone, there were a couple of thousand other people there and watching them made me much happier than joining them in many cases.
All I can say is who would have thunk it?
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