Mental & Emotional Health

Ok, so things are crazy and I’ve not posted regularly like I should.  Basically, I’ve been at one of the biggest blogging conferences of the year and I am exhausted.  I knew that I didn’t have the stamina of many women my age.  I knew that I didn’t have the stamina of many women over my age.  But, I had no idea just how bad my problems were.

On day one, I was so excited, I stayed up til near 4:30 AM and then had to be at breakfast for a meeting at 7:30.  That set the scene for exhaustion.  Throw in the fact that I cannot walk quite as well as everyone else as my leg is still healing but I was able to wear shoes.  But, I  didn’t actually walk, I more or less loped around. 

I didn’t drink any alcoholic beverages of any kind and about 4 PM, people would start looking at me and asking if I was ok.  The exhaustion showed in my face.  I spent chunks of time in the lobby, just people watching which is something I thoroughly enjoyed.  But, I also sat and envied those who had the energy and where with all to just go go go go, sleep a few hours and go go go go more. 

Naturally, these are the women who had the most fun I’m sure.  They saw more bloggers, met more bloggers, spent loads of time with more bloggers while I sat exhausted watching much of it pass me by.  I haven’t addressed this issue with my doctors since I was diagnosed with thyroid problems and diabetes other than to say that yes, I do take the medication you prescribed.

But, you can rest assured, when I return home, I will set up an appointment for the check-up I missed a couple of weeks prior to this trip to see if there’s more to this story than meets the eye.  The saddest part of it all is the feeling that I missed something.  I feel as if I didn’t get to experience the conference like others did and because of that, I find I’m somewhat depressed.

But, I will make it.  I doubt very seriously if I try another big conference for a while.  I will be content to stay home with my kids and husband, who I have missed terribly and follow the twitter feed.  The difference will be that in the past when I did this, I was green with envy, from now on, I’ll just enjoy it all vicariously through the attendee’ because in reality, my health just won’t allow me to have the fun that I want to have if I am at the conference in person. 

With that, I’ll get you more information soon.  Sorry for the disappearing act.

As many of you know, I’ve been wearing a cast on my leg since late January.  And, I had surgery in May and the time is coming that I am starting to feel better.  Basically the orders from the last time I saw him, which was last week, were to go 2 more weeks non-weight bearing.  He quickly did the math in his head as to how long it had been since my surgery and he came up with barely 5 weeks.  He decided that I needed at least six and possible eight. 

They did remove the hard cast and put me back in the boot but still with the non weight bearing issue.  And, since I had tried to put my foot on the floor and put a minor amount of weight on it, I knew that it wasn’t going to be an issuse to stay off of it.

I continued to use my granny lie wardrobe.  And, I don’t even have to speculate that part of my poor pitiful me depression has to do with my lack of ability to do anything for the last 5.5 months but sit on my behind.  I know it matters and it matters a lot.

Well, tonight, I took a few steps with the boot on and didnt’ use the walker.  Technically it’s been 8 weeks (the dr mis-calculated before), and it wasn’t hurting me, I went ahead and give it a whirl. 

And, tonight, with the idea of making a run for some ice cream as a special treat, I decide to go and even leave the walker at home.  I made it perfectly fine.  At this rate, I might get to go on my trip later this month without having to haul this big ugly cast around with me.  What a dream that would be?

You have heard me details my woes around here quite of often so what about you guys,   No one really comments around here much and I am thinking of letting it go.  I have a lot of projects going and I really wanted this blog to work.  I really wanted to use the education that I have to talk to people who have questions, people who want to know the best way to find help and people who want to hear personal real tine discussions from people who have walked down the same road you have walked on or may find yourself wandering down soon.

So, now I am not sure where to go with the site, how to continue to market it and how to get it moving in a place that’s much more helpful here.  So, if you have ideas and you would like to contribute, by all means, please, toss out some ideas, give me at least a tiny piece of bread to work with here.  I’m waiting while you decide.

I will tell you that on the note of writing here regularly, I am having surgery in 2 weeks on my ankle which has been in a cast since January…for those of you who forgot.  How could you forget?  It’s all I think about as I hobble and clunk around.  Oh, you aren’t watching me lump around uh?

Anyway, in 2 weeks I am having surgery and I will be non-mobile, and bound to crutches for 4 to 6 weeks after that so I will have plenty of time to bug you while I am sitting in one place trying to drum up some visitors over here on the mental site because I will probably be pure mental before this thing is over.

Another one of those long sentences, but I did it…hahahah

It’s really not that big of a deal right here close to me, but they have managed to find some cases not far away and a few cases in some schools around the state.  I personally haven’t been too alarmed until yesterday when I was sitting in the lobby of the office building of the doctors office where I have been frequenting with this broken bone.  I saw a sign there, it says “Tamilfu for sell here” and I wondered, hummmmm is that really necessary.

I took tamiflu several several years ago I took tamiflu when I had the flu.  I haven’t heard too much about the drug or the flu that much in recent years.  My kids both had a flu shot this year but I did not.  But with that, it doesn’t really matter because the swine flu isn’t necessarily respond to this swine flu strain.  So, I start to wondering, what is going to happen.

Add in the fact that I am getting on an airplane soon and as you know, our VP made a statement about being in confined spaces like airplanes and subways and managed to single handedly upset both industries.  And, one of my bloggy buddies is married to a med tech and he told me last week that if he were me, he would definitely wear a mask before going in an airport or getting on an airplane.  And, since I tend to get sick quite easily, I’ve been thinking alot about it.  And, so with that, I set out for the perfect, trendy mask and I believe I may have found one….

Obviously if I am traveling, I need to be well.  I am headed to the Florida Conference for Women and then the Atlanta Mixer hosted by Mashable.  It would stand to reason that I am going to be around quite a few strangers and obviously shaking their hands.  But what do you do?  Do I go buy the store out of hand sanitizer or just say, “I’d rather not shake”. 

What would you do?