Mental & Emotional Health

Ok, so things are crazy and I’ve not posted regularly like I should.  Basically, I’ve been at one of the biggest blogging conferences of the year and I am exhausted.  I knew that I didn’t have the stamina of many women my age.  I knew that I didn’t have the stamina of many women over my age.  But, I had no idea just how bad my problems were.

On day one, I was so excited, I stayed up til near 4:30 AM and then had to be at breakfast for a meeting at 7:30.  That set the scene for exhaustion.  Throw in the fact that I cannot walk quite as well as everyone else as my leg is still healing but I was able to wear shoes.  But, I  didn’t actually walk, I more or less loped around. 

I didn’t drink any alcoholic beverages of any kind and about 4 PM, people would start looking at me and asking if I was ok.  The exhaustion showed in my face.  I spent chunks of time in the lobby, just people watching which is something I thoroughly enjoyed.  But, I also sat and envied those who had the energy and where with all to just go go go go, sleep a few hours and go go go go more. 

Naturally, these are the women who had the most fun I’m sure.  They saw more bloggers, met more bloggers, spent loads of time with more bloggers while I sat exhausted watching much of it pass me by.  I haven’t addressed this issue with my doctors since I was diagnosed with thyroid problems and diabetes other than to say that yes, I do take the medication you prescribed.

But, you can rest assured, when I return home, I will set up an appointment for the check-up I missed a couple of weeks prior to this trip to see if there’s more to this story than meets the eye.  The saddest part of it all is the feeling that I missed something.  I feel as if I didn’t get to experience the conference like others did and because of that, I find I’m somewhat depressed.

But, I will make it.  I doubt very seriously if I try another big conference for a while.  I will be content to stay home with my kids and husband, who I have missed terribly and follow the twitter feed.  The difference will be that in the past when I did this, I was green with envy, from now on, I’ll just enjoy it all vicariously through the attendee’ because in reality, my health just won’t allow me to have the fun that I want to have if I am at the conference in person. 

With that, I’ll get you more information soon.  Sorry for the disappearing act.

I’ve already mentioned Prozac and Wellbutrin and now I’m going to hit you with another drug.  I don’t take Cymbalta anymore.  I did for a while and the more I read about it and consider my symptoms, I think switching was not a really good idea.  But, it’s done and it was a difficult switch.  I’m not up for switching again.

My reasoning is simple.  It’s a pretty well known fact but rarely documented one that I have fibromyalgia.  If you read my personal blog, you know more about this and if you know anything about fibromyalgia, you know that some doctors recognize it and try to help with the symptoms while others sit back and call us depressed and crazy.  I’m not too fond of being told that something is all in my head when I’m bent in half and having a difficult time walking. 

And, since I changed from Cymbalta to another drug, I’ve had more days like that.  I have more pelvic pain, more pain in my legs and I have a lot more headaches.  If you aren’t familiar with the symptoms, give this site a read, you’ll know so much more and be so much more empowered if it is you that’s suffering.